Religiously “Coming Out”
Okay guys, so a lot of you may have entirely different beliefs. Some of you are atheists, agnostics, baptist/presbyterian/pentecostal/whatever denomination Christians, Catholic/Lutheran/Mormon, or maybe Hindu, Buddhist, Muslim, what have you… whatever… but I am going to tell you some things that have been revealed to me.
I have grown up baptist Christian and have gone to many different denomination churches. I have seen nothing but judgement in nearly every environment. I have seen fire and brimstone theology. I have seen “sin” break people apart in their relationships, because people chose not to associate with someone because of whatever choices they were making.
I have seen people take on the responsibility of professing the “Word” AKA their translation of the Bible. I have seen people follow the Bible more than they follow God. What? Isn’t the Bible God? No. The Bible was God-inspired, meaning the Bible was written down by PEOPLE, translated from a different language, and then translated again and again for different people. We can study the actual manuscripts, the original translation, ect, but we still don’t know. Why? Because we’re not God. It’s still written by people. I think people want God, also heaven and hell so badly the Bible is like physical comfort. The Bible is their crutch, the Bible is their excuse to feel more powerful, more enlightened. However, we don’t need physical comfort to know God is there. I don’t need the Bible to know He’s there. I also know that the Bible can be translated and interpreted in many different ways. Christians debate with other Christians about these things. Over SILLY things, too, like if we can speak in tongues, or… whatever.
I no longer associate as one of these people.
I do not care what denomination you are, or even, dare I say it, what religion you are.
We’re all here. We all are sinners. Who is to say Joe goes to heaven because he believed in a, b, and c and Frank didn’t because he saw the other side of the coin? The Bible? Well let me remind you, it’s written by people, and oh, that can be interpreted many different ways too. The truth is, our paths are all so different, our minds work differently, we find truth differently. Who is to say you’re right, and I’m wrong. Or vice versa. We cannot say for sure who is, and you know what, I think NO ONE is, and no one should be. Not one person has the right to know fully how God works, and I think that is why there are so many beliefs out there. Not because someone sees the truth and the other doesn’t. Who are you to say you are right, and funny I use expletives in this, but who the hell (pun not intended) do you think you are, God? Sigh…. well. It’s comforting to know everything though… ;]
Ask yourself HONESTLY, do you know 100%? No. No one does. We have a belief, an inkling, and/or a faith in something. And quite honestly it differs from person to person. I want to caution the evangelicals before asking someone your list of questions and telling them they’re going to hell if you aren’t God Himself and know for sure. And let me assure you, you don’t. I am not saying I do, either. My point is shining a “light” if you will, on the people who think, believe, and act like they know. Only God knows. A little humbling, isn’t it?
I can’t stomach some of the fire and brimstone theology. And it’s not because of the sin in my life. It’s because I’ve seen it tear people away from God altogether. I love God, I have a deep spiritual connection with who I believe to be God. And it breaks my heart just as much as anyone to see someone walk away from Him. But the reason people do that a lot of the times is not because of their sin, it’s oftentimes because they don’t want to associate with people like you (you meaning, Christians who go out and do your fire and brimstoning).
Why would a God send someone to hell because they called their God by a different name.
Why would God send someone to hell because they had such a troubled, mixed life that they couldn’t decipher truth. They couldn’t understand, and be able to see truth in your theology because of the truths in THEIR life. Let’s be honest, the world is full of so many “truths”, opinions, stories… unless God comes down from the clouds to this person, literally, what to believe if you truly just don’t know for sure? What if the pains and, yes, temptations in their lives speak louder than that that which calls them to God? Is that really their fault?
Also. Do you honestly think that if someone were to die and face God, they would still choose their “sins”? And I’ll be honest, I don’t believe nor do I want to even worship a God who sends someone to eternal punishment if they spent their life misunderstanding God but fall to their knees when they see Him face-to-face, which, in that case, they would. Who wouldn’t bow down to an Almighty being who created everything? That’s unheard of…. also, it seems crazy to me to send that person to hell because they messed up in a world that is so.very.messed up. That “sin” is built in all of us, not saying it’s an excuse to sin, but honestly, God forbid if someone doesn’t recite John 3:16 and go to church everyday and make themselves “Bible experts” *coughchristiannaziscough*.
Just in case anyone cares, I’ve decided to tell you what I believe after MY personal experiences in life, through observing others around me.
My “Christian”” beliefs haven’t changed. I still believe in Jesus Christ, and yes as Savior. That also leads me to believe in the Bible, more generally, and not literally word-for-word, because like I said, things get lost in translation. I only read the Bible when I feel this inkling that I believe is God trying to show me something, and this is how it goes: I just open the Bible on a random page, and something on that page ALWAYS is something I needed to see. Then I close it. And I can pray, fix what I needed to fix, and have that spiritual and PERSONAL connection. The Bible is a spiritual, and yes, very mysterious book. Not solely a book of rules and conduct.
So in that sense, I am definitely a spiritual person. Not religious.
After researching other religions, NDE’s (Near Death Experiences) and have seen the actual struggle people have with the Christian religion as well as it’s people, it has come to me that my upbringing could very well be extremely narrow-minded, just like its people.
I believe everyone gets a chance in that sense. Because if I believe in a God, who is also a personal God, and understand people and their differences, I also have to believe He is a righteous God. Also, understanding Him has been through His love. God is love. He has to be. The world and its people work best with love. People cannot survive without it. A God of love does not want to send his creations to hell, even if they deserve it. if people truly knew this love, they would not choose against it. A lot of times, people may not get to experience or get to acknowledge this love that is from God until they die. And when that time comes, like I said earlier, who would seriously deny that if that were true? There’s good and bad in everyone. And when someone dies, if they go to hell, what about that sliver of good that was in them? Isn’t that such a waste?
In my experience in life, I have come to absolutely despise partiality. I smell it from a mile away. I hate cliques, I hate the act of treating people differently. I cannot, and will not, stand for a God who is partial to these people who claim to be Christians who parade around self-righteously. It’s almost disgusting. Jesus was, from what we can gather from him scripturally and historically, not that way at all. His friends today would be the Muslims, the prostitutes, the gays, ect, everyone basically that are “sinners” in the Christians (i.e as I see it, “the Pharisees”) eyes. Jesus is kind of the rooter for the underdog guy, in fact he is kind of the underdog himself. I kind of see the people who fall outside the Christian mold as underdogs. Now, I am not taking the Muslim, gay or prostitutes sides per se, but, I am not saying they’re wrong either. I could be wrong. You can be wrong. They could be wrong. So in the end. Who cares who’s right. God’s knows, He’s got it under control, that’s all we need to know. The end.
I think in the end, speaking of, God just wants us to love Him and love others. If we did that, those other details are so nit-picky, I can’t imagine in all the different circumstances for each individual person, he’d be so prejudiced about.
I think that’s the end of this rant. For real.